And they closed school for this? ......

Today, for my step- daughter, its a SNOW DAY!

I look outside my window right now, and there is a few flurries.. but no blizzard. No storm. So why close the school?.... When I was going to school, the snow had to be up 2 feet before they even CONSIDER sending us home or even (gasp!) closing the school !.. Nowadays, here in Newfoundland, They close the schools with the "predicited" storms coming. They are after closing the school ,and the storm didn't even go ahead lol. OH MY! .. Oh well..

Im quite enjoying the day home with her. I have the woodstove going, music blaring ( Britney Spears,"3" ) and making pancakes for breakfast!!

Now,Britney spears is over. The song, "gives you hell" I think thats what it is called.... well, I can really relate to this song! .. Im currently thinking about; who are your REAL friends?

Ever since I got pregnant, and Yes I expected this, my friends don't necessary invite me out anymore. I understand they are drinking, yes I cant drink, but I can still party. I can still come and have fun. Ive had my words out with those people a few weeks ago...I guess it was a hormonal time for me.. but my other so-called friends.. actusually , I haven't really considered them friends since August.

You see, I got married in August. These two girls and some of her family members were invited ( I grew up with them , so Yes I invited them to the wedding ).. I didn't invite there brother because he was a alcholic that has numerous run-in's with the law...actusually he is waiting to get sentenced to go back to jail, out on bail right now. He verbally attacked my husband a year prior, he was drunk trying to get my husband to hit him first, luckily brad walked away from him) and my husband doesn't wanna have anything to do with him since this has happened, and I completely and support his decision on this. He is always grabbing my ass and making sexual comments toward me. I can go on witht he disgusting things he has done. Anyways, this girl didn't want him at her own wedding cause at a wedding prior, he attacked the groom. So obviously, I did not invite him to Our wedding. ..

HE SHOWED UP!!!

My husband wasn't to happy about this. My parents were not happy with this. His parents were not happy with this.

So, he was asked to leave understandably cause he wasn't invited in the first place.

He left no problem.

However, my so-called best friends verbally attacked me in front of EVERYONE ( left me crying 10 mins before I got married ) and left. umm.. I was like sure you didn't even want your own brother at your own wedding,and Im suppose to be ok with him being at mine??...

They came back after the wedding ceremony.. they assumed coming back was there own way of saying sorry, but left a half hour after again, and found out that they went back and drank at their house.

It hurt me that they did this to me. this is unforgivable to me. So since august, I talk to them when I have to ( i have to work with one of the girls), and I don't hang out with them anymore. I am godmother to one of the kids they have.. and I feel badly that I aint around her anymore that she doesn't even know me anymore. But I can't have people using me..talking about me.. around me no more. I am pregnant, I don't need their drama, simple.

they are obsessed with weight, they are all on a diet every other day, and they have been making comments about my weight . I am pregnant, you are suppose to gain weight!!.. I have only gained 20 pds so far, i am 28 weeks pregnant. I don't think thats bad.. but I shouldn't be concerned with that.. I am having a baby! I am going to have a beautiful son not to much longer. Since then the comments that came back to me, I refuse to put pregnancy pictures on facebook. I just dont feel comfortable. I have felt down on myself with the weight I am now, this is the heavest I ever been and with them making comments, I don't need it..

BLEH! I think im done rambling on about them, cause I can go on so much more but I feel thats another blog for another day.....lol...

Off to take out supper!! :):)

Another day, Another dollar

I got up this morning, going around the house like a mad woman, cleaning while gettin chelsey ready for school. This morning after chelsey was gone to school, we have company coming. Child protection was coming to our house and I wanted to make sure everything was tidyed up even though our house isnt that much big of a deal, I usually have everything done before I went to bed.
I am guessing you are wondering why we are having child protection visit our house? we are arranging for our daughter ( my step daughter) to have councelling as she is showing aggression/frustration and well, simply she won't talk to us, so we are trying at least have her talk to someone. Since we got full custody of chelsey, chelsey has expressed that she has felt she was kicked out of her mothers house ( her mother asked us to take chelsey) and she expressed some tantrums, etc since. We want to get her help while she is young and we are trying to have the transition of her moving here easier and better for her. She has made such a improvement in school wise, and there are rules and displicine here as at her mothers, she was free to do what she want and I think thats why she is so behind on her reading level,etc cause she was never forced to keep doing it at home. It has been a upward battle since chelsey came living here. And it isn't going to get easier. She is starting to tell LOTS of "fibs" and I won't stand for it. She is 10 years old, pees her pants.. most times its laziesness, but yesterday she came home, i know how she acts when it happens, and i asked her why she did it, and she lied to my face ( she was already grounded for lying , this was the last wk for her grounding) and i told her for the lie she told me, she is grounded for a additional week. If she actusually told me the truth she wouldnt of been grounded nor would I have been mad at her for peeing her pants cause actusually what happened, has happened to everyone, happened to me before, so why would I get mad over it ? ( she and her friend was joking, laughed so hard she peed.... thats understandable) I Just couldnt understand why she lye about it and I am trying to get her to understand she wouldnt be in so much trouble if she just told the TRUTH. Needless to say, she didn't like me to much yesterday, but the way I figure it, I must be doing something right and hopefully when she gets older she will recongize what I have done for her and she actusually look back and say, hey she tried her best with me and she do love me. I love her very much, just sometimes it gets frustrating. I know I aint her mom.. but I am being more of a mom to her then what her OWN mom is being. now thats a topic, I don't think blogspot would be able to hold a blog for. lol. I can ramble all on and on and on!!!..

I know I kinda jumped back and forth there.. Just getting my thoughts out.. Anyways, we have it set up for chelsey so hopefully we will get it all set up for her.

We also have to go meet her teachers this afternoon.. Not looking forward to it.. But I think it only has to do with gettin her extra help as her language comphrension isn't improving, even though I am trying my best at home to get it better. I am after taking her to the bookstore gettin her level reading, gettin her pick out the book she wants to read, encourage her,, but she just doesn't seem interested. I can only do so much, but She knows she has to read for 1 hr each night and its to the point I have to sit down and read with her so I know she do read ( normal kid stuff--skipping pages lol )...

BLAH! My mother in laws birthday today. The big 5-0! We are going to pick up a cake and card later, so it is going to be my place for the evening is down to her house..

Enough rambling for today... now to follow some people!!!

a new blog.. first time doing this

So, this is new for me

I wanted to start a blog that I can vent about daily ramblings about anything without fear of family/friends reading. So here I am!!..

I am looking forward to meeting other bloggers and sharing comments/advice/ general chat-chat lol.

So I am starting with the basics.

I am 24 years old. I married the love of my life, August 8th 2009. I am a step-mom to his child, Chelsey from a previous relationship and she is 10 years old.

We found out 4 days before our wedding that we are expecting our first together. It was planned and we couldn't of been happier as our wedding was a suprise to everyone( we told everyone it was a engagement party).

We were pregnant before. June 5th/09 we found out we were pregnant but on June 10th, I miscarried. It was a really bad day for us as we really wanted that baby. My family couldn't exactly understand what I was feeling or going through as they never went through it. Yes it was early in my pregnancy that it happened, but it wasnt a Opps pregnancy, we were sooo happy that things were looking up for us , things going our way and i couldnt understand why god had to take him/her away from us, what did we do wrong???....... my point being is i knew a girl that got an abortion a few days before.... she didnt want her baby but she was having a healthy pregnancy til she got "rid" of it..and i wanted my baby...and god takes him/her from me. After a while, I grieved over it on my own cause my family kept telling me to "get over it". and we tried again the next month and to our suprise, we got pregnant again...i kept telling hubby he must have super sperm and im fertile myrtle lol.


Right now I am almost 28 weeks pregnant. I am having a boy!!!! so excited for that! we have 3 names picked out... Caleb, Jacob, or Parker.. we are more leaning with Jacob more then anything. He is definity a kickboxer! I am going to post a video of him kicking when I get it uploaded on the computer.


Thats it for the rambling of me today. I am going to try and visit other new mommies and maybe we can all keep connected. :)